I feel the world with such shattering intensity that sometimes it's hard to believe that I can get up in the morning and go about my day without getting pulled into some emotional and sensory storm and getting lost on the wind.

My daily battle is to use this energy to further my own life goals instead of hindering them. I am only moderately successful. But I strive. It will be worth it to be successful, so that I can spend more time feeling, experiencing and doing, and not be trapped in a place of survival and panic.

I am feeling pretty good about where I'm at right now - just have to clean up the lingering financial mess and move on.

Of course, listening to a powerful song that hits on many of my emo triggers is not helping me get off on a good start to my day. Or maybe it is, in sending me off awake.